I think all of us are guilty of only showing the best pictures and best stories of our everyday lives. I think that's only natural. I don't think people enjoy airing their "dirty laundry."
I do try my best to be as honest as possible on my blog, but here are a few things you may not know.
1. I'm not a natural blonde. Hhahaha.. I'm sure that came as a HUGE surprise. I have only one color applied to my roots, no highlights. The girl that I go to does a root touch up and haircut for $65. You can't beat that right?
2. I have struggled with feeling like a failure because I did my best, but still didn't get into the Dental Hygiene OR Sonography program. I have beat myself up so much over that.
3. My friend already touched on this, but I have so many mixed emotions about being married to a police officer. It can be so nice (I mean, I feel pretty darn safe when he is here), but on the other hand, he isn't here that much. It can be very isolating to be a SAHM AND married to a cop. Somedays I feel like a single parent and it's hard. I have had meltdowns on a few occasions. Not solely because of his job, but due to a mixture of little things that just built up and exploded.
4. I don't like the way my body looks after having Harper. I know that the loose skin and stretch marks are "badges of honor", but it sucks knowing that your once-toned body will never look the same. I realize that I look "thin" to everyone else, but underneath it all, it ain't pretty.
5. I have terrible skin. I had AWFUL acne as a teenager and was put on Accutane after I had tried everything else. As a result, I am left with clear skin, but it's red and angry looking all the time. I burn VERY easily now as well. You will probably never see me without makeup because I'm very self-concious of my skin. If you do happen to see me without makeup, it's because I'm comfortable with you :)
6. I stay up until 1am sometimes reading blogs. It's because I have nothing else to do! My hubby is gone, baby is in bed, there's nothing on tv, so why not? I feel like such a weirdo.
7. I am so thankful for the friendships that I am building within my Sunday School class. I'm so blessed to be a part of this group. They have been such a support!
8. I get really, REALLY tired of watching cartoons all day. It's like hearing that same dumb song on the radio that you hate over and over again. At the end of the day, I want to pull my hair out!
9. I have an addiction to Mt. Dew. I mean, an unhealty one. I rarely drink water because I absolutely hate the way it tastes and every single flavor packet that I've tried to add makes my throat burn. I have significantly cut back though and I'm proud of myself :)
10. Everytime I see "Touched by an Angel" on TV, it reminds me of my grandma. She used to watch that show before and after she had her stroke. I think of her and miss her every day.
Goodnight,
Yay, thanks for doing this! I'm glad I'm not the only one insecure about my post-baby body. I'm the size/weight I was pre-pregnancy, but it's just not the same. When I bend over, my once tight tummy is loose and it annoys the hell out of me!
ReplyDeleteI do the same thing when Edwin works nights too. I'm up until all hours of the night on the laptop. 5 yrs later, I still can't go to sleep early when he's not home.
I think there should be a support group for girlfriends/wives of police officers. I often have meltdowns about Josh's work schedule, and I don't even have a baby at home to take care of! I hate that we don't get to do stuff like other couples do. I am always hear to listen/vent about it anytime!
ReplyDeleteGrandma also loved Jeopardy and Duke basketball!
ReplyDeleteI am always *here to listen.
ReplyDeleteDitto on #4. LOL. Not to bring you down, but just wait until Harper is old enough to ask "what are those marks on your tummy?"
ReplyDeleteYeah, now that Ashton is old enough to understand I'm sure to blame her for every.last.one. Ha ha.